you wonder why I keep to myself
a few months ago I moved from Jersey to Florida. My parents said ‘I have no choice’ so I went with it. I didn’t want to I’ve live in NYC and Jersey my whole life. I’m 2000 miles away from what I know as ‘home’ I was talking to my dumb ass cunt mother today telling her I want a plane ticket to go to Jersey to visit my friends that I’ve known basically my whole life. I said ‘DO NOT tell dad’ he was under the impression I love it here. trying to show a little trust in her because she always complains how I don’t talk to her about anything and i just keep to myself. I come home from a party to find my drunk ass father on the couch waiting for me. he rips the headphones out of my ears and I said ‘yeah’ he said ‘you don’t want to be here then fucking leave get the fuck out. you don’t care about anyone but yourself.’ I came here to make my family happy even if it meant me be miserable. but I only care about myself? whatever. my mom comes in the room before I can reply and says ‘you weren’t supposed to tell her I told you’ I said ‘yeah you weren’t supposed to tell him’ the reply I got was ‘yeah well I can do whatever I want’ I said ‘fuck you bitch. I moved here because YOU wanted to, I try to respect YOU because YOU are my mom. I take care of david because YOU two want to go party all the time. I do whatever YOU tell me to do. I maintain this house because YOU are to tired to EVER do anything. I NEVER SAID I WANT TO STAY THERE!!! I OBVIOUSLY WILL COME HOME!! I’ll stay to be here for David!! Sorry i want to go on a vacation because I have NO friends here!’ I put my head phones in music not on and she says ‘she’s a selfish bitch. I hate her I can’t wait for her to leave in 2 years.’
cool bro I take care of your son your house and do anything to make you happy and I’m a selfish bitch you hate. thanks.
ready to go roll a fat blunt. find a blade, smoke and leave the world for a bit. relapse here I come -___-
sorry rant over now.
